If you are just starting to follow along on my weight loss journey, I recommend starting with these posts first – Coming Clean Post Week 1 Week 2 Week 3 Week 4 Week 5 Also, make sure you are following along on Instagram.
Wednesday 9/23 – Day 43 – Week 7, Day 1
Starting Date: 8/12/15
Starting Weight: 274 lbs
Current Weight: 258 lbs
Pounds Lost: 16
Pounds to Goal: 84
Goal Weight: 174
Goal Date: 8/27/16
Height: 5′ 9″
I am starting off this week a little differently. If you have been following along with me, then you know that I took week 6 off from documenting this journey. Committing myself to blogging 365 days in a row has been A LOT to add to my plate and I needed some time to myself. Taking the week off had it’s ups and downs. I will get into that in just a bit. But first…
I LOVE my job. Not many people get the opportunity in their lives to actually say that. I get to fill my days with helping others, teaching about natural health and wellness through essential oils, creating healthy new recipes for my site, writing books, working out, being with my husband, seeing friends, traveling the world etc. I literally get to do whatever I want and be my own boss.
Seriously, what more could I ask for? I spent 15+ years working in restaurants. I worked my way up from various crew level positions into management and HR positions. I was very good at my job and was always promoted or offered promotions anywhere I worked. But it was never enough. It was never my calling. So, as a result, I would always go back to school for one thing or another. I took two years of sign language so that I could learn to speak to the pool of deaf patrons that frequented one of the restaurants I worked in. I took various computer courses and learned how to build a computer from the ground up. I took different fitness courses and certifications. I was always looking for something better. Something that gave my life purpose and meaning. Something that actually helped people. Serving plates of food to hangry guests in my restaurants was not that calling. It sucked the life and joy right out of me. I felt trapped for so long. My financial obligations dictated my life and everything in it. I was living to work and not working to live. There was no passion behind anything that I did. No real sense of accomplishment at the end of the day… Hooray… My restaurant ran smoothly, the books balanced, no guests complained, the staff was on point, my boss was happy with me. Wash, rinse, repeat. It was a grind. Grinding away like most people do at their jobs, but also slowly grinding away at my soul.
Over those years, if I was not in school, I was always working two jobs. It wasn’t always that I needed the extra money. It was that I always had one foot out the door. I was always looking for something better. I worked tech support jobs. I did IT sales. I worked as a legal administrative assistant at a law firm. They wanted me to become a paralegal and even offered to pay my way all the way through law school. I bet you never knew that about me huh? So many little part time jobs on top of a full-time job, in a quest to find purpose.
I have always had an entrepreneurial spirit and a racing brain full of ideas. Some of those ideas are even good ones. 🙂 It wasn’t until 2011 when things started to turn around. I started my blog. It was a complete hobby blog. The pictures were taken with my iPhone, the layout was horrible and I had no idea what I was doing. But, I found a creative outlet that made my day job sting a little less. Something that was completely on my own terms. The kind of thing where the outcome was a direct result of the work put in. Working through my daily to-do list at my job never gave me that. As my blog began to grow and people started to take notice, I began to wonder if that could ever be my job. Could I create delicious recipes, tell people my story and actually get paid for it?
I am a chronic researcher. I always have been and I always will be. It has suited me well. I researched and researched some more until I learned all the ways I could build a brand that people would want to follow, while always staying true to my mission, vision and values. I did exactly that. It did not happen over night and it took a lot of work, but it was my work. I was finally doing work fueled by passion. It was time to take a leap of faith…
Summer of 2012 was the last time that I worked for someone else. I never looked back. I left a management position at a job I worked at for nearly 5 years to be a full-time blogger. People thought I was crazy. As I said my goodbyes, I could see the “I’m sure we will see you back here soon” look in their eyes and the half smiles on their faces. That only fueled my fire even more. Tell me I can’t do something, and watch me do it bigger and better than I initially set out to.
Nearly two years later in 2014 another big change happened in my life. Work was booming and life was good, but with that came some unexpected anxiety, panic and worry. Having taken a huge leap of faith without a safety net, I was in a constant state of “fight or flight”. Something needed to give or I was going to crack. The doctors only answer was to get on an antidepressant. I didn’t accept that as my only option and set out to research other things that could help me. I knew two things for sure… I could not live the way I was and that I refused to take an anti-depressant. Around the same time, I got the worst cold I have ever had in my life. 104 fever, hallucinations, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t breathe etc. It lasted nearly a month. The doctor put me through 2 courses of antibiotics that ravaged my gut, gave me codeine cough syrup and then hydrocodone cough syrup, an albuterol inhaler and then a course of prednisone steroids. When I saw the 2 page list of possible side effects from the prednisone, I immediately threw the bottle in the trash. These two experiences were the catalyst to change where my health was concerned. I was determined to take my health into my own hands just as I had done with my career.
Again with the research… I was looking into dietary changes, herbs, essential oils, switching to chemical free options etc. So much research. I swear every google search brought up an article about essential oils. It seemed as though all signs pointed me in that direction. It was almost as if someone had hijacked my browser and was skewing my search results. Google search: Gluten free bread recipes” 1st page of results… Gluten free bread with essential oils. Okay, not really, but it was starting to feel that way.
Having been raised with western medicine principles and an iron clad sense of cynicism, I wasn’t convinced. I am not the type of person that takes things at face value. I want to know how things work. I want to know why they work. I want to run my own tests to see if they work and quite honestly to try and disprove things I find hard to believe. (This is where the cynicism comes in)
I figured it certainly couldn’t hurt to give it a try. I ordered my starter kit with Young Living and the rest is history. In the last year and a half, my life has been a whirlwind of changes in every facet of my life. I went from being a complete and utter skeptic to an enlightened, empowered and mentally strong believer. There isn’t a single area of my life that has not been transformed.
I am happier, healthier, stronger, more financially secure just to name a few. I am my own boss and living a lifestyle of wellness, purpose, and abundance. Most importantly, I am living a life of FREEDOM. Free to run my own businesses. Free to be the ultimate girl boss. Free to chase all of my entrepreneurial whims without fear or limitation. Free to be ME!
All because I took a chance on myself and took that first leap of faith…
As I sit here looking back over that last week and a half or so I feel blessed beyond measure that this is my life.
Meeting with others to teach them all about the ways they can enhance their health and wellness and remove toxic chemicals from their home, cooking delicious recipes for my family that I can share with the world on my blog, traveling the world, moving my body and treating it well.
This is my job?? No. This is my life. My completely awesome, unpredictable, at times a little crazy, on my own terms life. I am loving every minute of it.
I’ve come to a new realization over the last 6 weeks. Through my coming out post, my support group, my essential oils, my fitness, all of it, that I want to go back to school. I want to look into programs to become a life coach – personally and professionally. I want to incorporate total health and wellness through fitness, nutrition and essential oils and help others live their life to the fullest potential in all areas of life. Physically healthy, mentally healthy and financially healthy. I feel it is my true calling. I also believe that it took this giant step backward in my own journey to propel me forward into the life of my dreams. Helping people is my lifes calling. You can expect big things from me over the next couple of years. Mark my words.
Taking Week 6 off from documenting all of this was both a blessing and a curse. The plan was to continue with my fitness and healthy eating, but take a break from writing about it each day so that I could get a little mental rest and relaxation. Somehow, I just filled that extra time with more work and didn’t really get the break I needed. I also didn’t realize just how much I needed the accountability of documenting this whole thing. I did not do great in Week 6. I had a couple of pumpkin spiced lattes from Starbucks. We went out to sushi and then a couple of days later we went out to Mexican food. That was a wake up call. I ate probably a weeks worth of cheese in one meal and my stomach hated me the next day. See, I told you in my very first post, that I am an imperfect person. This is just one of the examples of that. I’m not being myself up over it. It was two bad meals. Before, I would have made a weekend out of it, or even an entire week. So even though it was a slip-up, it was still progress. Actually, the sushi lunch was planned. We did not eat out for 40 days. We cooked every meal at home. We did not eat a scrap of food that we shouldn’t. We picked a date for a sushi lunch and that was that. No regrets. Was the rice way more carbs than I would normally eat in a day? Yes! Was it the worst food choice I could make? Not even close. I’ll never be the person that cuts myself off completely from the things I love. There are just healthy and unhealthy ways to go about things. Planning a sushi lunch once every 40 days? – healthy! Ordering pizza three nights in a row and binging? – Unhealthy. Now the Mexican food was a different story. It was not planned and we did not make good choices. We both paid for it the next day and then cleaned up our acts. End of story. Week 7 is upon us and I am ready to crush it. Pictures and Weigh in to come tomorrow. I need to run out and get batteries for my scale!
Thursday 9/24 – Day 44
I weighed in today. No change. That is a WIN! If you read my post from yesterday, then you know that last week was not my finest week. I ate off plan, didn’t get in much movement and kind of slacked off. But I didn’t go off the rails. In the past I would have used one bad meal as an excuse to take a trip down binge lane. I went off plan and still maintained. Then I just picked right back up where I left off. That my friends, is progress. Here is to a big week ahead.
Today I am grateful for the beautiful fall colors. It it truly my favorite time of year. I only wish the colors lasted longer before falling to the earth.
Today I took a nice long walk by myself. No podcasts. No music. Just some “me time” alone with my thoughts. The sunshine and the beautiful colors had me feeling like I could just keep walking forever.
What I ate:
I can’t get enough of my Chicken Bacon Fried Rice recipe. I have made a double batch twice over the last week and a half. I have even been eating it for breakfast with eggs on top. Here is another version on my site – Chinese Sausage Fried “Rice”. I wish my Trader Joes would hurry up and get the frozen cauliflower rice back in stock. I don’t mind making my own, but it is so, so messy. Worth the mess though. I’m hooked. Here are 24 more Creative Low Carb Cauliflower Rice Recipes
Friday 9/25 – Day 45
Starting my day off on the right foot by diffusing 4 drops each of Believe and Stress Away. Although it is Friday, it feels a lot more like a Monday. These oils definitely help. I’ve been feeling a little out of my mind the last couple of weeks. Trying to reign it in and get back to a place of peace and tranquility (as much as a Type A workaholic can) . Taking some quiet time in the morning to diffuse and focus my thoughts really helps. The problem is that I am already on my phone answering questions and emails before I am even out of bed. Eyes open… pick up phone… start work day. So, so, NOT healthy. Working towards changing that behavior by not looking at any device until I am downstairs, have my coffee, get the diffuser going with something for strong emotional support and then… then power up and start my work day. It is amazing how many destructive behaviors we let creep in outside of just poor eating habits and lack of physical exercise. We do these things daily and never take into consideration the effect they have on our overall health, not to mention our waistlines. Take my morning for example. I pick up the phone and see a barrage of emails, messages, texts, etc. What does that do? It sends a shot of cortisol through my entire body, triggering a fight or flight stress response and that is setting the tone for my entire day. How am I supposed to stay focused, on track and practice self care if I am starting my days this way. What does excessive stress often lead to?? Stress eating! How many of you got where you are today from stress eating? What behaviors could you change to help with this?
Believe – Restores feeling of hope and helps to release the unlimited potential inside us. It also helps to encourage feelings of courage, faith and strength.
Stress Away – can help induce relaxation and reduce occasional nervous tension. Vanilla contains eugenol which may combat nervous tension, while cedrol found in Cedarwood essential oil helps to induce relaxation. Learn more about essential oils – Here
Today I am grateful for random visits from friends. Even 30 minutes of catching up with someone you love is so good for the soul. It helps keep my bucket full.
Today I did 45 minutes of Stress Relief Yoga. I didn’t snap any pictures of it though. It was just what the doctor ordered for this overtaxed brain of mine.
In other news, I have been seeing the hashtag #facetoface Friday floating around on Instagram lately and I thought I would partake. Holy guacamole am I glad that I did. It was just the confidence boost that I needed after my week off last week. Just another reason I am always preaching to you guys about not letting the scale define you. Even though I have only lost less than one pound in the last 2 weeks, the differences in my body and my face are showing more and more each day. The picture on the left was taken during week one and the picture on the right was taken today. I can’t get over how much bigger and more sparkly my eyes look.
What I ate:
For breakfast I had the most hardcore bacon and eggs I have ever had. 🙂 This was my maiden voyage using my skull egg mold. I broke one of the eyes, but it was still fun. You can pick one up for yourself – Here OR you can win one from me for free. I bought two of them. One for me to keep and one to give away to one of you. Let’s see who actually reads these posts in their entirety. To enter, just comment on this post and referencing my post above, tell me one behavior other than poor food choices and a lack of exercise that might be sabotaging your healthy living and weight loss efforts. Then tell me what steps you can take to correct it. I will pick a winner at the end of the week. GOOD LUCK!!
Saturday 9/26 – Day 46
Today is not the traditional diet and exercise post. It was kind of a hectic day. We had 2 essential oils classes scheduled for today. Not to mention, I got a touch of the crud that has been going around and was feeling pretty awful. However, the feel good moments are all around me. After we were set up and waiting for class time to roll around, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror (We were in the group X room of our local gym) and for the first time in a while, I didn’t shy away from the mirror and immediately want to turn around. I noticed some positive changes in my face and body and so I decided to snap a mirror selfie! I didn’t get a workout in today. I could barely breathe, let alone physically exert myself. It was bad enough that I had a day of work obligations ahead of me. Those did not go as planned either.
Today I am grateful for meeting new likeminded friends. It feels great to be surrounded by positive and supportive people that share your same vision and values. With that, I am happy to announce that we rejoined our old gym (our pre Crossfit days gym) Tahoma Athletic Club. The manager there, Debbie, is just one of the nicest people you will ever meet. She radiates health, wellness and positivity. I am so happy she came into our lives. (The picture below is of our Essential Oils 101 class set up in the Group X room at the gym)
What I ate:
Tonight for dinner we ate chicken fajita salads. Easy peasy. We used the taco seasoning recipe from my site and then just piled on some veggies, cheese, sour cream, and salsa. Delicious!
Sunday 9/27 – Day 47
Ugh! Still not feeling good today. Worse in fact. I should have just been laying around and getting the rest and relaxation that my body needs. I swear I am a glutton for punishment. I have decided to completely redo my home office. It has turned into sort of a “catch all” for all the random stuff that comes into this house. I am ready to take back my domain and turn it into a place that I want to spend my time. Look out world, Kyndra is about to get her DIY on. Sooooooo, instead of resting, I was visiting Home Depot, Lowes, Marshalls, Target and a couple others to get supplies for my office overhaul. My office is about to look like Pinterest threw up in there. Stay tuned… Below is a sneak peek into one of my DIY supplies. Although I didn’t get a workout in today, I did get my 10,000 steps in with all the walking I did while shopping. (and yes, I did wear those same yoga pants yesterday. I love my crazy purple pants)
What I ate:
I didn’t actually eat much today as I haven’t had much of an appetite with this cold. BUT, I did photograph a picture of the new drink I found. It is my current obsession. Let me just tell you that I don’t typically like a lot of drinks. Soda? no! Sports Drinks? No! Energy Drinks? No! I’m sure you are getting the picture. I have just never really cared for them. I am pretty much a coffee, sparkling water, Ningxia Red and the occasional alcoholic beverage kind of girl. So, when we saw these at the gym and decided to try one, I was already convinced that I wouldn’t like it. WRONG! Love! My favorite flavor so far is the Bolivian Black Cherry. You know I’m hooked on my sparkling drinks. I have been looking for them everywhere and so far have only found them at the gym. Yesterday I found them on Amazon Prime and just realized that Amazon has a feature called Prime Pantry. Without going into the details of that, I found them for really cheap and got $5 shipping for 11 cases of these (6 per case) That is how much I like them. 1 net carb per bottle, no crap ingredients, gluten free, non-gmo, vegan, kosher – AMAZING! If you can find one by you, try it immediately! *** Friendly tip… Look for the ones that say Prime Pantry, otherwise the other ones are crazy high priced. If you have a spot local to you where you can find them, comment on this post and let us know where so others can find them out in the real world. Otherwise, you can find them – here. Okay, that was a long love letter to a drink!
Monday 9/28 – Day 48
Still no workout for me. I need to get better and back to full capacity before I exert myself that much. Just getting showered and ready for the day today had me feeling exhausted and I had to sit down for a few minutes. I’ll get back at it soon. That is not to say that it was not a busy day. Lots of projects going on around here. As I mentioned, my office is getting a makeover. I started sanding down my desk today. It is a beautiful solid mahogany desk from the 50’s and it is getting a brand new look. Sanding by hand is definitely an arm workout!
I know these aren’t my typical workout, food and mental health posts, but this has been a different kind of week. You are getting an glimpse inside my everyday life outside of this weight loss journey of mine. I hope that’s okay. 🙂
What I ate: